They had this one song, Deeper, that I used to LOVE. It was one of the first songs I learnt to play on guitar. It was then one of the first songs that I sang publicly too – although strumming and singing at the same time was difficult for me (still is, really).
But, more than me having a song that I could play (quite the achievement!) the song became a bit of a cry for teenage me too:
“And the wonder of it all is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you”
It was like my mission statement about my relationship with God. A heart longing for something more than I had known or seen before.
Thing is, I know that I’ve lost that longing.
Maybe it’s laziness or just life, but I realised that I’ve been coasting for a while…that I’ve just let my relationship with God go stagnant. Yeah, I’d read the bible – but only because I felt like I should, not because I wanted to get to know him better. I’d worship too, but because I love music rather than because I simply loved to worship. All of those things…I’d do stuff, but not because I wanted to “fall more in love” with God.
So, change is afoot.
Alongside the cell group I help lead, I’m going to read through Celebration of Discipline. If you haven’t read it, this is an amazing book – all about practising the spiritual disciplines.
“The desperate need today is not for a greater number of intelligent people, or gifted people, but for deep people.”
So over the next few weeks I’m going to be reading it, practising it and then me and my mates, we’re going to tell you our journey…we’ll see what happens as we seek to go Deeper, to get back to the pursuit of Jesus in simple, everyday things.
There are 12 key areas where we’re going to look to go deeper:
- meditation, prayer, fasting and study being the inward disciplines
- simplicity, solitude, submission, service being the outward disciplines
- Confession, worship, guidance, celebration being the corporate disciplines
All things that will form and shape each of us. Scary but exciting. All of them leading us to a deeper relationship with God; all of them creating space for God to meet us in new ways.And this is my starting prayer:
“And the wonder of it all is that I’m living just to fall more in love with you”.